I’m so angry I’m frustrated I’m not good enough I hate who I am My children deserve better than me I destroy every relationship I have I hate myself I hate myself I wish I wasn’t here My girls are better off without me I’m angry that my husband doesn’t see me, doesn’t see my…… Continue reading Thought Process
Sometimes when music is on, a song reaches out and demands to be heard and even though you have never heard the song before, you already seem to know every single word. Today, from Ed Sheeran, it was “Save Myself”. I gave all my oxygen to people that could breathe I gave away my money…… Continue reading Save Myself
It’s that time of year again…B is back to coaching and teaching and my offspring are back to school. After almost over two months of me getting up early in the morning, taking a shower, and having a cup of coffee while the rest of the house slept, back to school is a rude awakening.…… Continue reading “August is the Sunday of summer.”
I have hidden my anxiety and depression from everyone I know. I’ve always been the outgoing funny friend. The one that doesn’t get offended, the one with no filter and a steady stream of sarcasm that says “fuck” a lot. I’m not serious very often, so when I am, it’s not taken seriously. There are a…… Continue reading When light comes through the cracks.
It’s been brewing. A few weeks ago in a random discussion with a couple of male friends, sexual harassment and assault came up. I have been the victim of both and am admittedly very sensitive about the topic. Anyone that knows me knows that I am not offended easily and I can take a joke.…… Continue reading A Rant.
Tonight, I am simply feeling so broken.
Sometimes I find it hard to get up and move. The weight of what I’m carrying around feels too heavy and all I want to do is curl up and…do nothing. I woke up this morning with a horrific headache, irritated eyes, and a sore throat. We are currently in the middle of the worst…… Continue reading On the Verge